There were 8 or 9 of us meeting to pray for our friend who was going through treatment for Acute Myeloid Leukemia.  The leader also invited us to share, in our praying, any personal requests.  It had been a long time since I had been with this group of friends and so praying together also became a way of hearing what was going on in their lives.   One man was praying for his young son and asked God to help him see that control is an illusion.

I left that gathering pondering ‘control is an illusion’.  Control says that I know and have the answer.   Remember Joni Mitchell’s song, “Both Sides Now”?  In each of the choruses she admits that in all the ways she has looked at clouds, love and life, she realizes that she doesn’t really know life at all.

So, what is the posture I take.  Danna Faulds give words to what I long to live into to break the any illusion of control I may have.  She says:

Allow

There is no controlling life.
Try corralling a lightning bolt,
containing a tornado. Dam a
stream, and it will create a new
channel. Resist, and the tide
will sweep you off your feet.
Allow, and grace will carry
you to higher ground. The only
safety lies in letting it all in—
the wild with the weak; fear,
fantasies, failures and success.
When loss rips off the doors of
the heart, or sadness veils your
vision with despair, practice
becomes simply bearing the truth.
In the choice to let go of your
known way of being, the whole
world is revealed to your new eyes.

If I seek to control, I will stay stuck and miss all that God has for me.  If I allow, grace will carry me to higher ground.  If I allow, I may simply see the truth.  If I allow, a whole new world may open to me.   If I allow, I open myself to look at both sides…and then another and another.